If these forums are bringing you down, then don't visit them anymore. Concentrate on bettering your life. Everyone in your life is just a projection. If you want positive people in your life, act more positive. You receive what you give out to the universe. Believe that you have manifested all your desires and feel happy that you already received them. Thank the universe that you received them. Make a list of all the things that make you feel grateful in your life to get rid of your defeatist mentality. The only thing that matters in this world is your pursuit to happiness. I believe you can be successful in your life. You have the drive. Reinvent yourself into somebody who is a positive thinking machine. Leave the past behind, thank God for all the valuable lessons that you learned through your hardships, move on and look forward to your future.