Im barely holding it together boys

[Mulattocel]

To get to sleep i have to take melatonin half the night im silently screaming and crying to myself because i cant wake my relatives up and get yelled at im always contemplating suicide and if someone gave me a pistol right now id shove in my mouth without a thought and pull the trigger i dont care about sex or friendship i just dont care i like most of you guys especially my best friend @overeitherway but i cant take this shit much longer even if i got sex that would only pull me from the edge for a year or 2 max im a the end of my fucking tether

 

[overeitherway]

To get to sleep i have to take melatonin half the night im silently screaming and crying to myself because i cant wake my relatives up and get yelled at im always contemplating suicide and if someone gave me a pistol right now id shove in my mouth without a thought and pull the trigger i dont care about sex or friendship i just dont care i like most of you guys especially my best friend @overeitherway but i cant take this shit much longer even if i got sex that would only pull me from the edge for a year or 2 max im a the end of my fucking tether

things WILL get better, you WILL love your self, you WILL not rope, you WILL find love

 

[Mulattocel]

things WILL get better, you WILL love your self, you WILL not rope, you WILL find love

Bro i dont care everytime i imagine myself in a relationship i think back to my school days all that bullying and i automatically stop caring about sex and relationships

 

[overeitherway]

Bro i dont care everytime i imagine myself in a relationship i think back to my school days all that bullying and i automatically stop caring about sex and relationships

yea i can't imagine my fat ass being in a relationship and actually being loved ngl

 

[Mulattocel]

yea i can't imagine my fat ass being in a relationship and actually being loved ngl

i honestly think my mother is right if i ever got a gf id end up abusing her

 

[overeitherway]

i honestly think my mother is right if i ever got a gf id end up abusing her

she's just projecting cause she dated abusive tyrones in her prime

 

[Mulattocel]

she's just projecting cause she dated abusive tyrones in her prime

your somewhat right tbh

 

[Cope]

nah u got this