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Despite being rejected dozens of times that I lost all count, there was some genuine romantic interest from women. I have been on a couple of dozen dates, but the relationships went nowhere after a few meetings. My dates either legitimately got mentally/physically sick (some were mentally ill) or "mysteriously" disappeared. The majority of the women that flirted with me, wanted me to pursue them more aggressively, but I chose not to. My social anxiety was chronic in 2019 and 2020. One of the few years that I could've had a short term or long-term relationship with a woman.
I believe the real reason why women shown interest in me several years ago was because I worked out religiously during that time period. I remember one time in the psych ward back in 2019, a nurse accompanied by a very young, HTB nurse student opened the door to my room without my consent. I was in the middle of getting dressed and I was shirtless. The young woman's eyes became round, and she gave a huge smile after looking at me. I guess she liked what she saw. I was big, ripped and tanned. The woman knocked on my door 5 minutes later and asked me if I needed anything from her while twirling some hair with her finger. She was giggling and smiling the whole time. I rarely get that much attention from women. I guess working out combined with my psychopathic stare can make some girl's vagina out there twitch.
My psychologist from 5 years ago told me I was normal looking after I asked him to rate my looks. I don't think I look like a Chad, but he could've said that statement to piss me off. Who knows. Maybe he was just being honest with me. I did tell him I had a few women interested in me. Maybe he got tired of me talking about my girl problems. I eventually told him a few Blackpill facts, and he suggested that I challenge those Blackpill beliefs if I ever want to have success with women. He told me to sit on a public bench and it's guaranteed that I will see all different looking types of men paired up with women. Men of all different shapes and sizes. I also remember my childhood friend asking me how it felt that I looked like no one out there. That guy was mean to me at times, but that was his personality. I guess at the end of the day, the only opinion that matters are my own.
I believe the real reason why women shown interest in me several years ago was because I worked out religiously during that time period. I remember one time in the psych ward back in 2019, a nurse accompanied by a very young, HTB nurse student opened the door to my room without my consent. I was in the middle of getting dressed and I was shirtless. The young woman's eyes became round, and she gave a huge smile after looking at me. I guess she liked what she saw. I was big, ripped and tanned. The woman knocked on my door 5 minutes later and asked me if I needed anything from her while twirling some hair with her finger. She was giggling and smiling the whole time. I rarely get that much attention from women. I guess working out combined with my psychopathic stare can make some girl's vagina out there twitch.
My psychologist from 5 years ago told me I was normal looking after I asked him to rate my looks. I don't think I look like a Chad, but he could've said that statement to piss me off. Who knows. Maybe he was just being honest with me. I did tell him I had a few women interested in me. Maybe he got tired of me talking about my girl problems. I eventually told him a few Blackpill facts, and he suggested that I challenge those Blackpill beliefs if I ever want to have success with women. He told me to sit on a public bench and it's guaranteed that I will see all different looking types of men paired up with women. Men of all different shapes and sizes. I also remember my childhood friend asking me how it felt that I looked like no one out there. That guy was mean to me at times, but that was his personality. I guess at the end of the day, the only opinion that matters are my own.
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