I assume you either want to kill your family, fuck a member of your family, or kill other people. Gotta be one of the three. Anyways, that's not rare. That's usual for people with reduced emotional abilities. Same for me. Even psychopaths do often feel something resembling love for people close to them. Attraction is not really love to be honest until it develops into it. I only find a very specific profile of person possible to truly relate to and love purely, or at least whatever is closest to that that I'm able to feel.